Ive always had a set way at looking at life that required facts and figures to process things. I was told that makes me an analytical thinker. That makes complete sense because that's exactly what I do. Analyze things. Everything. I want to know why and how on every aspect of life. I suppose in some instances that can make life a little difficult because not everything seems to have a simple how or why. But I enjoy the journey of learning the how and why.
My step father once told me that with age you become less concerned with the things going on around you. I guess I have not reached that age because for me, the older I get, the more it matters. But it wasn't always this way. The pivotal moment in my life where things began to really matter was when I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. The first things that mattered seem to trivial to me now. Like most new parents I had to have a million and one fad items because they would some how make my baby smarter and parenting miraculously easier. I got a crib, bottles, a breast pump, clothes, baby monitor, exersaucer, high chair... You get the point. There were a lot of purchases.
Awaiting the arrival of our bundle of joy I had a perceived notion of what kind of parent I would be. I hear so many of my friends without children talk about what type of parent they will be. How they will raise their child, what type of discipline they will use. How they're child will never be allowed to do ....... As I sit and listen I cant help but smile at them. I spoke those same words before my daughter arrived. She would sleep in her own room in a crib. She would sleep through the night. She would have a schedule. She would be potty trained by age 2.
My daughter arrived and all of my plans and ideas were crushed. Nothing was as I thought it would be. That's not to say that it was bad. It was just different and most definitely a learning experience about life, love and true happiness. We just recently added a new member to our family. A son. This time without all the preconceived notions and a much simpler view on parenting.
As my children grow I grow with them. And I would like to think for the better. Now every single choice I make in my life I think of them. Everything I do as a parent affects them. The things said in front of them, the foods they ingest, their education, even the politicians I vote for. With this knowledge I have become passionate about every single choice I make. Now I will share my journey with you.
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